Be contented but.... define the level of contentment?

Life's always a mist, dont know what's the next step's going to be.
If the next step is visible, that wouldn't be life anymore.

What is life all about? Having fun, being happy and achieving goals?
People in life plays a big role as well ~ Family, friends and so on.

There are so many 'how i wish' but yet all seems unreachable and it comes down to being uncontented with life ~

When days are gloomy, which are the pillars you're looking for to rely on?
Sometimes the direction to head to all seems so blurred and that emptiness grows within me.

Reliance can be a sweet process to enjoy through but yet a scary thing to possess.
It has the ability to make you feel empty and lost as thou you're all alone in the forest.

Would you rather live without it or bear the consequence?

Reliance is one thing i am hard to live with but yearns to have.
Being able to be sure of where to run to during rainy days instead of keeping all within.

Certain feelings are just lost when I grow up gradually.
Always being pampered and dote on by the people around me. Showering me with the best i can get.

Under the comparison of many others less fortunate people, contentment is really the word for me.
Knowing the facts well but yet feeling the lack of 'something'.

Be contented but define the level of contentment? There's always a higher level to reach towards.
Always reaching out for a better me and the way i want my life to be.
Wishing that there will to be more pillars to make a better support in life.

Or should there be just no expectations? or no thoughts at all?
As Vicky always say - Being happy is all that matters.